sad life
I feel guilty, I don't want to talk with my mom. I want to isolate myself from my family, they don't bring me comfort nor happiness. I kinda want to delete them from my life. But at the same time, I feel extremely guilty. I feel like I own them so much, and that I should talk with them more often. But I can't. I get anxious just thinking about going home and spending time with them. And my thoughts make me ashamed of myself. I wish I didn't have misophonia, maybe then I would have a better relationship with them. But right now I kinda want to disappear. I hate myself.